Training

7 to 4 , 9 to 5 that's all life was about for the last 6 months , walking and cleaning through endless corridors , waiting for countless hours with a fake smile in a lobby , sweating all the time while cutting,chopping,blanching and being cursed at frequently, making 500 cups of coffee a day , drinking 15 cups of tea a day. over all i wouldn't call the experience good or bad ..... it was slow,stressful and a test .......a test which i made it through from counting months to days to hours and it was over!!! 6 months in a professional environment working for a big corporate . It was now time to unwind and unwind i did into the spirals of mother nature and the cosmic universe .

jai shiv shankar

I have travelled to far east india for 20 days and i feel amazing.........

In a land i have never been before, walking away with my bag towards anything that caught my eye .....

I met so many people saw so many places , through unknown languages and different variety of foods. I feel my mind expanded a lil in the everlasting conciousness of wisdom. Through out my trip

i was taken care of by myself, silly decisions, other people, animals and of course the Almighty.....

The majestic bhrama with all its magnificence, the mysterious jungle foothills of arunachal, landscapes and wild life of assam, fruits and pretty women of meghalaya and of course

the valley of tenga.

This part of my country i would love to explore as much as possible. i feel now like i have truly walked a million miles away from home and would love to go beyond and see whats further.

There's something about mother india that where ever i go i feel it's home , i feel that its where i have belonged from..... may be because i never really had a village or town of origin on my map. So i guess the whole of india is my native land.........

i will never once forget this journey and all that it taught me . Life changed again just like it has many times but more inclined towards peace,solitude and wisdom of oneness with mother earth and being a soul with a connection to the higher cosmic universe . my love for travelling with no rules and just to go with the flow will never end.............. and now i feel like it's just the beginning

:D

last moment blues.....

i don't know why but i have a very bad habit of leaving everything important to do for the last moment. Its not that i prioritize things over imp stuff its just that i get some silly thrill out of it, its when i can really feel the pressure in the "now or never " situation i feel the weight of things and gravity of being bound by circumstance. Aaahh being bound by circumstance that's a really close thing to me, take my advice, if you cant do a particular thing because your will ain't strong enough then put yourself in a situation where there will be no way out for you except conquering and battling your problem rather then running away from it. eg =fat people should watch a lot of nat geo and then get themselves stranded in the sahara desert and live on bare minimum for like 2 months till they are rescued!!!![now i actually think people might pay to sign up for this ;) and then they will turn it into a reality TV show :( ] . its 4 am , my exam is in 5 hrs and i haven't opened the book but as usual i ain't worried full shanti , in a while i shall get my self to to learn some thing so that i pass.

"A dream you dream alone is only a dream,

A dream you dream together is a reality "- John Lennon

i call this "spitting out whats in "

A series of bullshit i have written

"being negative is reassuring, being positive is enlightening"

"Serenity can be found at any place as long as its within"

"Worship things non exsistant which persist you to question the reason for being"

"The mind is a throne of light, the soul is the spark to it"

"Unleash the Creativity to create a new way to look at the world. Transit through
layers of transdental conciousness altering what once was creating what will be.The
inner awakening of today brings the fixed ideas of tommorow"

"I" and "me" dont exsist .Ego blinds the path to enlightnment.

"Mystic are the moments of truth through which we smile, Along with the worlds
Reflection through the mirrors of our mind"

Climbing up o Fall back down

Eager for sleep am twisting and turning
A restless mind and a heart that's burning



eveerythings on the edge of time right now and after the chaos resides it will alll be over.
Tasteless are the days of 2011 i think i lost the flavor of life somewhere behind......
Nothing now days sooths my mind more than ravi shankars sitar , so divine so blissfull
harmonies which have such a deep universal meaning and impact yet with its melodies afloat
drifting you to peace. So its all work and no play for me for a while.......

He Long gone, He Long John
He Long gone, He Long John
Brother John said, In the chp 14
If a Man Live Let his Sin be seen
-Missisippi Delta

Sailing Through

Neglecting the most important of things till they pile themselves up is one of my very bad habits.
all's on my head and here i am watching this anime called "paranoia agent" which is pretty cool so far. the weirdest things i saw this week was, a mans hand which was some how cut open and gleaming bright red blood in the afternoon sun shining from it and while he was in the situation he got himself into another dude was continuously slapping the shit out of him, the bleeding dude had a cart full of grapes which was blocking the traffic creating further more commotion. At first when my eyes glanced through this scene i thought the situation should be dealt with, but then i quickly thought to myself "It's none of your business ,this is a crazy city anyway" As i wanted to see each second taking place of the situation i was leaning to look forward as i suddenly realised that i was among that vast group of people who had stopped or slowed down to see what was happening and just enjoy the show, That very second i stopped looking, though my curiosity was getting to me but i did not budge to see another moment of it as i knew some one's strife cannot amuse one for long and that witnessing something of this sort till the end and not doing anything about it would make a much more hollow being of me than i already am.The second thing what i saw earlier this morning was a kid roughly 8-9 years of age hitting himself repeatedly in the face with a metal rod as an adult holds him but does not stop him ( probably his dad) and another boy of the same age overlooks . Now this made me think of what situation that boy was in and i was left perplexed .In this Crazy City i call home i see too much hate pondering every where .Stuffy concrete urban vibes have clouded the mind .Not a moment of peace not a fresh breath of air .
And me just sailing through

Arghhhh!

I think am a very patient being sometimes but some people ten to prove me wrong sometimes.
How shud one avoid somethings which just gets to you and agitates you? like when someone abrutly hangs up on you and refuses to tell you whats wrong when all you want always is to see a smile on that persons face wish whats best for em OR when you meet a Good close friend after a long time and he tells you to fuck off and leaves without paying heed to your exsistance OR when you strive all week to make someone special happy and then they call you a liar !!!!!! The first one made me loose it in guilt of a something i have done but i not know of, its funny feeling and a very confusing one which i got over after some heavy amount of battling in my head, The second one was a pure negative vibe thrown to me in my face like while i was trippin which my friend was unaware off, it was because of me not seeing him for a while but i cared a fuck for giving an explanation it was simple i had a life now and couldnt be available to his calls as before. The 3rd one is like wtf man your tripping hard i invite you comfort you give you music something to smoke which you say u dont feel ike smoking so i leave it to that . you have fun and leave.5 hours later you call and say u wanna smoke meet meet !i say possible but in a while, go draw or something peace&love, she says "Lair" in a txt and doesnt answer! This shows how people act when they dont get what they want at that very moment, their negativity is focused towards the blockage between them and their wants and the same blockage would be the divine messenger for them if all goes well.

Divine moments of truth

Or shud i call it divine moments of strangeness..... past two days have been GALACTIC . Am not the same anymore guess i never will be.Its amazing how much one can change in terms to thought,expression and perception towards life i two days.My mind is still wandering into a variaty of things but is not confident of blissfull change its a dark and obsecure sor of alteration which hasnt ended yet. Which ever road it shall lead me through i have started to realise those one close to me are are now far far away and have forgotten me and moved on into the winding roads that their lives are taking them through. It shud hurt but it doesnt ,theres a feeling of letting go to this ,which shudnt even have that in the first place.The immense amount patience sometimes i require to deal with situations makes me go to the edge and bang my head against a wall i mean shit! fine then test me and see how much i take to snap

My new space

This has been created with my intention to record my daily ranting and hopefully find something usefull some where in it.Life is flying by as fast as it wasnt bothering to move last season.So much change So much floating around to the continuosly happing reality altering it self in moments and define our next steps.Well after a year full off being absent to my inner most self i begin my writing with this post .